Yup I'm already in U lah =O when did this happen? uhhh I moved into my dorm(หอ) on Saturday afternoon(like 5 days ago?) and started class on Monday and so today was my 3rd day as a University student lah 555+ its been pretty good :) and my roomates are very nice~ one even made cookies :D my other roomate is also considerate since she always informs me about the parties too although I don't go cuz I don't know what'd I'd do 555 letsee...Marisa will also be here next week...i'll put more stuff later cuz I'm tired now 555 :D    

Today I just finished the only 2 exams I had to take so yes I'm freeeeeeeeee~
anyways I'm posting pics of prom for friends and family*mom cough**cough* but not all of them...there's really too many( like 20 different cameras people...)

Me, Keara, and Herman...we were at Gaby's waitin for more people and our limo

Victor, Me, and my best buddy "Park Ranger" Parker they were all "I wanna take a pic with the prom queen!"(Me: ....)

Suess wanted to take a pic with me...

Group photo @ gaby's (Parker, suess, victor, justin, jon, marisa, keara, me, herman, danielle)

Jon, Marisa, Michelle, Keara, Me

Parker, Michelle, Me, Victor


"The girls of '09" as michelle puts it lol; Keara(LOL@ her on the phone), Gaby(she's awesome cuz she made her own dress), Cathy, Alex, Michelle, Danielle, Alexis, Me, Marisa


Michelle, keara, me

Suess, Victor, Parker, Michelle, Me


We tried to get a group pic with everyone but.....


...finally lol

"...." sorry marisa...


Cathy, Herman, Gaby, me, Suess, Justin

Limo~

Limooooo.....(behind the camera is Justin, Gaby, Herman, and Cathy...and later shanique)


"Nice hair...Can you guess who I'm talking about?"- Justin

Cathy and Gaby; this was when our main course was served(chicken, rice, some sweet sauce, and some veggies)

Herman looks happy...lol

Maggie and Ria

Keara, me, and Justin..me and justin were in teh middle of eating so we had food in our mouths lol

Alexis and Carr look so cute lol

Michelle(left) and her date

Group pic after Victor(guy at bottom left) found the piano(and boy was he excited about it lol...always a musician at heart)

They called up the Prom Court to announce teh King and Queen...me and my friend Carr(the big guy there) were just like "...what are we doin up here?" btw that's not a bouquet that's a rose and a palm leaf thing




Luna and his girlfriend won yay~~~ they're nice kids so I clapped :D

Gaby was checkin her raffle tickets to see if she won anything

I was the only one who noticed that Mrs. Larson(parker's mom) was taking a pic of us XD

We be takin a picture with Mr. Ho who said to Parker's mom "Will you hurry it up woman?!"(Left: jon, marisa, herman, gaby, the Ho man, parker, casey, danielle, casey's date; bottom: me, cathy, michelle)

"We got fortune cookies!" oh and victor stole that fan from teh center piece on teh table lol(parker helped)

Photo op before leaving: courtland, keara(sneakin in the back), suess, and parker)

Keara gettin her groove on....LOL XD

there are more but i'll post them when people upload them....

Prom is tonight :D should be fun~ i'll post pics for mommy and my friends whenever my friends send them to me this week~
7 hours~

....I still don't believe it XD 555 It just seems impossible lol and its the funniest thing I've heard 555 cuz its so random XD
why? I got nominated for prom court...yes prom court....555 isn't that the funniest thing ever? XD its very surprising cuz I'm not one of those popular kids 555 and cuz these things don't exactly interest me...so yea.. I keep thinking its a joke that everyone is pullin on me...but I guess anything is possible now? lol
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I'm still waiting for my dress :( UPS sucks >=I

EDIT: nm....thank you UPS :P

Waiting in for the drug dogs to check our stuff so we could get on the bus....





Finally on the bus...

^I was tryin hard not to fall backwards into the aisle lol XD Park Ranger Parker was tryin to support my back to make sure I wouldnt fall XD


...finally there


This was at the dance floor i think...(yes I had my purple contacts in lol)


^ Metro Station(meh...I dont listen to US music and they werent my spec anyway 555)

^Takin a break from dancin for a photo op.

beautiful fireworks show :D

stupid poses infront of a store there lol
White Tie Affair <3 Didn't know them but fell in love with 'em after watchin them perform lol
cathy and michelle takin a photo op. during the White Tie Affair perf....I was in the middle of jumpin lol XD extreme rockin out WOOHOO lol btw we don't know that guy who's smilin in the background lol
the guy from the White Tie Affair was funny lol XD

then we went home on a freezin bus...stupid lady was havin hot flashes and us kids had to suffer >=I anyway summary and more pics will come later~

:D i'll explain more later cuz I'm still really tired cuz we got back home around 7 somethin in the mornin and cuz I had rocked out so hard the entire night XD

I figured I'll send an audition to JYP and SM ent. just for the heck of it lol dunno if they'd accept me(probably not since I don't have their ideal body type =_=) and I'm not sure on my Korean pronunciation but so far on youtube and with Korean people I do meet, they tell me my pronunciation is very good(I got mistaken as Korean 2 times lol XD like one time this lady's family surrounded me and bombarded me with Korean and i was like @_@) plus I dunno if my voice is good enough for their standards but hey why not? lol I don't have to pay for anything lol and I can say I tried XD Although YG is my most favorite label...I think its better for me to try out for JYP or SM(probably more with SM) because I think my voice is more suited for pop kinda songs not the kinds YG usually produces(i think they got singers that are like waaaaaaaay waaaaaaaaaaay waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay above me) although I think my confidence went up a bit cuz of youtube lol XD I put some recordings of me singing english for the heck of it and to see if my pronunciation is any good lol must be cuz so far I got 5 stars for them :D yes i'm very happy lol cuz the thing is I'm told my voice sounds nice in Thai and I can somewhat agree with that but whenever I hear my singing voice in English I don't really like it as much lol I think it sounds so much more average than when I sing Thai so I always wondered if it was the same with me singing other languages...

...This time it was Epik High lol....mostly Tablo XD and I think his gf was in it but only for like 5 seconds XD
I'd say its strange in that I have dreams of my favorite celebrities 3 days in a row...yea...normally is like once every couple of months..
on a side note...I'm sad there's no more Fly to the Sky :(
Brian and Hwanhee of FTTS decided to not renew their contracts so FTTS is bye bye now TT^TT
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on the good side grad night and prom are comin up :D
on the good/bad side...I'm gettin my own apartment...but I wont have anythin to put in it...heh....and its too stressful to figure out all this stuff @___@
...but Na'Aor said she would visit with Kitti and we would have fun...I think that would make not only her and Kitti happy but me too...they really need that...

now to some serious parts....it hasn't sunk it...I can say "yea he's no longer here" but I'll always feel like he's still here and still breathin...even when I saw his bones at the family alter it still wouldnt sink in that he really is gone...I keep expecting to hear from him to see him....that we'd embrace each other and laugh....although I know that is no longer possible...it wont sink in...its hard to talk to my aunt sometimes because we somehow end up bein in the awkward moment of thinking of him...I feel lost...helpless...not only for myself but that I can't do anythign for her....she told me that he would be proud of me and that he loved me...I told her I know...I know very well...that I love him...that he was my most favorite...that she and Kitti are my most favorite...are imporant to me and that he told me to take care of them...she seemed very surprised and I could imagine she must've felt some pain, yet warmth....

No matter how much time passes you're still an important part of me and I'll forever love you and cherish the memories...

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04. 돌아올지도 몰라 (You Might Come Back)

dola oljido molla
nun dola oljido molla ah
weh dola ojileul ana
nan iluhkeh nul gidaligo issuh
babo gateun na

ijuh bolyuhgo oneuldo nolyukheh
geululsoolok ohilyuh duh ddolyut heh
ni giyukdeuleun nal jabgo no ajoojil ana, woo yeah

nun imi dduhnatneundeh
hutdwen gidehman gajigo issuh
nan ajik geudehlondeh nuhmoo himdeundeh nul itji mot heh

(neh son ggeuten) ajikdo nuh eh cheh ohni neuggyuhjyuh
(neh noon ga en) nul geulimyun noonshi ooli boolkyuhjyuh
nan mot heh nan nul bonehji mot heh nan

dola oljido molla
nun dola oljido molla ah
weh dola ojileul ana
nan iluhkeh nul gidaligo issuh
babo gateun na
dola oljido molla
nun dola oljido molla ah
weh dola ojileul ana
nan iluhkeh nul gidaligo issuh
dola oljido molla

hamggeh itneun gutmaneulodo jo as-suh
(nuhleul) bogoman issuhdo gibooni jo ahsuh
(naneun) sesang modooleul da (da)
gajin deut heh geuletneundeh yeah

nun imi dduhnatneundeh
hutdwen gidehman gajigo issuh
nan ajik geudehlondeh nuhmoo himdeundeh nul itji mot heh

(neh gwitga en) ajikdo neh moksoliga deullyuh
(neh doo nooneh) neh moseubi sunmyunghageh boyuh
nan mot heh nan nul bonehji mot heh nan

dola oljido molla (gidalil guhya nan)
nun dola oljido molla ah (oh~ nul dashi nul)
weh dola ojileul ana (nehgeh)
nan iluhkeh nul gidaligo issuh
babo gateun na
dola oljido molla (nul)
nun dola oljido molla ah (dola ol guhya)
weh dola ojileul ana (baby)
nan iluhkeh nul gidaligo issuh (iluhkeh gidalyuh)
dola oljido molla

geudeh dduhnan balguleuneul nehgeh dollil soo itdamyun
geudeh jinan choouk dduh ollimyuh nal geuligo itdamyun
nehgeh dolawado dweh iyoon mootji aneulgeh
geujuh neh gyuteuloman geudehyuh dolawa nehgeh dolawa
oneuldo geudel geulimyuh noonmooleul hoomchyussuh
amoo iyoo ubsshi geunyang noonmooli heullyuhssuh
ni binjaliga kuh ni senggaki duh ook duh gipuhga
oneuldo nul ddu olimyuh nan babo chulum

dola oljido molla (dolawa jwuh)
nun dola oljido molla ah (nan noomoollo oh)
weh dola ojileul ana (nul gidalineun nehgehlo)
nan iluhkeh nul (mal ubsshi) gidaligo issuh
(andwehneun gul) babo gateun na
dola oljido molla (geu noogoodo)
nun dola oljido molla ah (nul dehshinhal soo ubssuh)
weh dola ojileul ana (nan i jali ehsuh nul oh nul)
nan iluhkeh nul gidaligo issuh
dola oljido molla

TRANSLATION

[JS] you might come back
you might come back
why aren’t you coming back
i’m waiting for you like this
like a fool

[WY] i tried to forget again today
but the more i do, it becomes more vivid
the memories of you is holding me and won’t let me go, woo yeah

[CS] you’ve already left
but i still have useless hopes
i’m still the same, it’s too hard, i can’t forget you

[JH] (at the tip of my hand) i can still feel your body heat
(at the tips of my eyes) my eyelids redden as i yearn for you
i can’t do it, i can’t let you go

[JS] you might come back
you might come back
why aren’t you coming back
i’m waiting for you like this
like a fool
[JB] you might come back
you might come back
why aren’t you coming back
i’m still waiting for you
you might come back

[NK] i was happy just being together
i was happy just looking at (you)
(i) feel as i have the whole (whole) world.
it was like that.. yeah

[CS] you’ve already left
but i still have useless hopes
i’m still the same, it’s too hard, i can’t forget you

[JH] (in my ears) i can still hear your voice
(with my two eyes) i can still see your image clearly
i can’t do it, i can’t let you go

[JS] you might come back (i’m going to wait)
you might come back (oh~ you again, you)
why aren’t you coming back (to me)
i’m waiting for you like this
like a fool
[JB] you might come back (you)
you might come back (will come back)
why aren’t you coming back (baby)
i’m still waiting for you (waiting like this)
you might come back

[TC] if you can turn back those footsteps that left me
if you’re yearning for me as you remember the past memories
you can come back to me, i won’t ask for the reason
just come back next to me, come back to me
yearning for you again today, i wiped my tears
without any reason, the tears just flowed
the emptiness you’ve left is big, the thoughts of you grow deeper
thinking of you again today, like a fool

[JS] you might come back (come back)
you might come back (with my tears, oh)
why aren’t you coming back (to me, who’s waiting for you)
i’m waiting for you like this (without a word)
(even though it can’t..) like a fool
[JB] you might come back (no one)
you might come back (can replace you)
why aren’t you coming back (at this place, i’m.. oh, you..)
i’m still waiting for you
you might come back
credits to: krn lyrics: daum/mnet
romanizations/translations: crazykyootie@soompi

I've been havin really odd dreams in the past 2 yes...TWO days...
first one was the other day when I was on the car on my way to Orlando...I had a dream with Ji Hoo/Hyun Joong ...like it was dreamin the actual character from Boys Over Flowers...and it was weird...cuz I havent thought of the series in like 2 weeks... O.o and like I listen to that one song he sang just about every night but I'm not really conscious and I've honestly been doin that for like a month and never ever had a Boys Over Flowers related dream...technically JunPyo's sister was in my dream too and I think the other F4 boys were there but it was more focused on Ji Hoo...lol(it was kinda like a Boys Over Flowers drama that was centered on JiHoo and his POV but he was gonna get the girl...until my dad woke me up)
then today I actually had like 2 dreams(my dad banged on my door interupting my first dream and I ended up continuing the dream but then it jumped into a new one? I swear my dreams are like Asian soap operas/dramas...anyway the first one had Top from Big Bang...as much as I love Big Bang I havent really been following them or been thinkin bout them that much in the past couple of weeks so it was prettttty random for me...it was also kinda funny cuz me and Top were in a fancy sports car and speedin around like crazy like he was part of the Fast and the Furious or something lol...anyway.....dream number 2 had....erg wait i forgot...let me think...who was it again....oh wait there were 2 in dream number 2...it was Golf Mike lol...it was weird in another sense that there was a crazy obsessed stalker harassin me...Golf Mike was there and I think they helped me out?(its like the 3rd dream I've had that's been like that and those all had Golf Mike in it...kinda weird yah....) but yea I swear my dreams are like the dramas...or movies or something...like sometimes it'll have real life people but there's like a story in my dreams and tehy're like the actors and characters of it...i dunno how to explain lol nor do I want to divulge on the details on my dreams XD though most of them are like literally the ultimate dream of a fangirl? oh although I say "me" in the dreams its not really like me...its more like I'm looking through the eyes and thoughts of the heroine of a drama lol XD

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another strange thing i noticed is how for some reason I feel like its easy for me to obtain my dream of singing in Thailand? and easy(doable) for me to meet Golf Mike and be friends with them? lol XD Logically its impossible and not likely what so ever but I keep havin this weird feeling that "hey you can become good friends with them...completely possible :D " O.o sooo weird lol....i'm weird...lol XD *mindy needs to be more realistic...* (that's the problem...it feels realistic T^T)

I've apparently been accepted to San Francisco Art Institute =O with a $9500 scholarship that's renewable for up to 3 years =O yaaay lol

I went in search of apartments and other places to rent around the Uni. and since I was in the area I thought me and Orochi(Angie) could meet up and have dinner~ so we did at California Pizza Kitchen~ and we SelCa-ed infront of the restaurant cuz it was bright enough lol
yes...orochi is muuuuch taller than me that she had to bend down to my height level lol

Disputes....protests....fighting...injuries...deaths....people that should be one divide themselves more and more...
Our country is falling apart....fighting is senseless but everyone is so determined in thinking "We're right and we must win at any cost" but weakening your own country is gonna have a big consequence...This can be said for both countries I s'pose but I was thinking more of the situation in Thailand...for once my family is pretty united in their views: Yellow Shirts...except fat lady...she's a red shirt(well she also supports Thaksin while most of my family hates him)....me? I guess I'd side with Yellow just cuz I support His Majesty...its kinda sad how I'm more involved with politices in Thailand that politics in teh States...

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anyway...on a side note....there's some good news...I got into UCF =D and i also got Bright Futures so that'll pay 75% which makes my mommy happy...but the naggin still doesnt stop...but I wont elaborate since I'm being monitored and even my  own blog is a place for my free speech...

*cough**cough* ...x___x I'm sick...heh...and being sick freakin' blows x___x I dunno I have like a cold or the flu or something...like I keep randomly getting fevers....Like my second to last period and started getting a pretty bad fever but by my last period it was completely...COMPLETELY gone O.o ...and my throat hurts and my nose is stuffy and runny and I feel like my head is gonna blow up...
anyway....
I was thinking how much happier in the past....I dunno random but yea...
It's like sometimes I'm not sure how I even feel anymore and I probably purposely make myself more annoying and and smiles when I kinda feel like empty? lonely? I dunno...it's a strange feeling...
And I think that person hates me O.o ...and I feel a sort of awkwardness around them...unsure what to do or say...the consequence of knowing some things I shouldn't know? I may be dumb, slow, and innocent...but I know more than I lead on...Besides I already figured it out but I found evidence that confirmed my assumptions...I have good instinct I just dont use it for myself ha....
Being sick I can't even fall asleep(i actually got home and went to sleep and was suddenly awoken by my dad who banged on my door who was yelling "DID YOU EAT ANYTHING YET?"...so I woke up and made some duck ramen...heh..) Lately I've felt like writing poetry but never really got to it...I dunno...
I don't really want to write one now either...I guess in this silence I will just lay down on my bed and stare at the ceiling...thinking in the silence...

I've also been thinking about him...wondering how he is now doing...wondering if he thinks of me...thinks of us...wondering if he's watching over us...it really hasn't sunk in yet....I think for me I bury it all with smiles and laughter but ultimately in the end...there's still the pain, disappointment, loneliness, regret, and self-hatred...

For the last time I'm not accepting messenger requests from you strangers!!! like seriously! for all I know you guys can be like a psycho or perv! so STOP ADDING ME CUZ I'M JUST GONNA IGNORE IT

Finished watching the Korean of Boys Over Flowers...I knew what would happen but I was still really hopin for JiHoo to have a happy ending, but as I expected it didnt go well for him =(
I still would totally prefer JiHoo over JunPyo....
Like I think JiHoo is like...the perfect guy? like seriously lol XD smart, kind, considerate, always thinking of the one he cares most about, sweet, there to comfort a girl when she's all sad, good looking, rich...oh and musically inclined...like freakin talented...as in can play many different instruments, can sing beautifully...and can speak different languages...yup yup
but no JiHoo really exists lol...T^T
lol...

Oh yea... I forgot to mention that yesterday me and ninja decided to walk to my house...there was like a gazillion grasshoppers everywhere ...=_= anyway...parker kinda saw us and called me and bein a nice guy and was like "do you want me to drive you guys home??" we decided it was more fun to walk..and it was...like we had a nice looooooooong conversation and learned about certain things which I cannot disclose here...but I feel like I've gotten closer to her now =D ninja i loves yous~

MAP THE SOUL(Tablo, MYK, Kero One)
(myk)
i remember my first glimpse of her face
i saw you smile, then i smiled
i was straight blown away
mesmerized by your beauty from your feet to your hands
how could one be so beautiful i don't understand
heaven sent, god's gift without a doubt in my mind
sometimes i wonder why our paths decided to collide
we started off as perfect strangers
boy meets girl, infatuation to love
now you're my whole entire world
destiny taps me on the back -- saying hello
but really it was your touch
no and i'll never let you go
then you spoke i never heard a voice so sweet
heavenly
and from her words man i knew this girl was deep
just like me
with times to worry and times to play
we'll sit and stress over life or just burn the day away

i know for sho' in our past life
we had to be friends livin and dyin together
knowin that we would meet again
it's just a blessin to have you in my life
i was destined, to be with you
my privilege so amazing no question
and i'm knowin, soon enough we'll get where we're goin
just thinkin about it i can feel my heart growing
am i trippin? or is it that i finally see?
i don't know, but my heart is saying that you're the one for me
please believe me, i'm exactly where i wanna be
this rhyme is written from my heart to you
sincerely

no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you

(tablo)
you turn a cocooned soul into a butterfly
and i, lose control, can never turn aside
you shine like summer skies, like when a lover lies next to me and says to me
you make me wonder why
you are a beautiful mystery
every note carved into musical history
a simile, metaphor, words not enough to
entrust to you,
trust that its true
we must have approved while we asked for evidence
dwell on past and sentiments, but we bask in eminence
every moment every day, busy getting paid away, the soul fades away into a grainy shade of grey
i pray, that you'll listen to what i say,
cause i feel like a missing shoe
this is to everything that you are,
the wild earth, a child's birth, sun moon and the stars

no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you

(kero one)
check it out
so i ask what would i be without you?
like stevie without wonder
hunger without food
a sheep without a shepherd
a sleep without your message
that despite the skeptics that i knew were true
and i knew, that there was more to life
and i grew, livin for the light
i took my answers, combined them with yours
it made life exciting but it closed some doors
with the crisis my life accelerated and deflated
sunk to the bottom, then elevated till i faded
but you always had my back though
when kids threw rocks at me, i'm on stage rappin -- still
i see kids without love it brings tears to my soul
but why they always dry up
the world's gone bonkers
your heart in fear
and as long as i believe
you're the reason i'm here

no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you

L-O-V-E-U, i was made to be with you
made to be with you
made to be with you
L-O-V-E-U, i was made to be with you
made to be with you
made to be with you
L-O-V-E-U, i was made to be with you
made to be with you
made to be with you
L-O-V-E-U, i was made to be with you
made to be with you
made to be with you
L-O-V-E-U, i was made to be with you
made to be with you
made to be with you

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I'm lovin the beat and teh rhymes and their voices...I dunno I'm just like in love with how MYK's voice sounds..I'm not sure how to describe it..liek why exactly...anyway I think its sweet and depicts love very beautifully...

Been listenin' to Epik High's new album...lovin' it~ I especially love the skit...it makes me laugh soooo many times lol XD also I really really really love the worldwide version of "Map the Soul" which has Tablo, MYK, and Kero One...its funny how I listen to alot of rap...but mostly like Korean rap and the only English rap I enjoy is the ones from like Epik High, MYK and the rest of them...now yesterday I will tell the story of how I finally got to see Utada =D its not random there's a part where I got mad cuz this kid was dissin Tablo >=I
So like on Thursday I was bummed cuz all 3 of my back up rides cancelled on me by 11pm...so I was bummed...and at school I finally found a ride...I could go with trainee but that meat I had to go with the stupid kid and teh bottomless pit...as you can tell I dislike the 2...but I was desperate to see Utada so yea I agreed...I wanted to give my drawing really badly too...stupid kid didnt realize it takes an hour to get to SoBe..and it was like maaaaad rush hour too(he picked me up at like 6:20 and expected us to get there before 7??wtf)...and I got mad cuz well...I was the only one who knew their way to and 'round SoBe...stupid kid kept doubting me as I told teh directions...GAH stupid...I knew where we had to go...I freakin grew up on SoBe for nearly...12+ years of my life..anywho this is the part where Tablo of Epik High is involved...trainee wanted to listen to Korean music on the car so we were listening to Epik High...I love Epik High...and like kid was sayin "the beat is terrible and teh beat is just ok" and then he proceeded to say that Eminem was better than Tablo...bullcrap...Epik High doesnt spout nonsense..they're rap is better in that they actually have a message...I prefer their beat and rhymes any ol' day cuz they actually make you think and actually has something to say not that stupid generic bullcrap...anywho we get to Collins Ave and it takes an hour to find a parking spot...we just had 'em drop us off as tehy went off to find parking...couldnt get in the building so we stood by the windows and saw Hikki who waved at us and the rest of the ppl who were stuck outside =D and then we were expecting them to let us in as tehy let teh other ppl out...when they let us in they told us "oh she left already" we were maaad pissed cuz well we had been told the event would run till 9 but it was only 8and I was maaaaad POed cuz I didnt get to give the drawing =__= but they had a biiiig pile of pics that she autographed...the store basically forced us to buy merchandise to get one=__= we were only allowed one but I managed to get 2..and teh last one at that...btw i bought the cheapest things and somethign I'd actually use...$5 apple lip balm...anywho yea...now I would love to tell teh rest of the story but I'm lazy...I may also not blog as much anymore cuz my freedom of speech is bein restricted...i'm being monitored by mis padres...heh...

I reallllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllly reallllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllly wanna see Utada...like so freakin badly....
but nothing has worked according to plan...Asian convoy was a no-go...couldn't find rides....back up plan was Angelica...that didn't go as planned either....my last resort is to pray that my dad doesnt get called into work tomorrow so he can take me...but even so I don't want to go alone...but I still want to go....Hikki is my most favorite Japanese singer and probably my most favorite female artist...I've been her fan for a looooong time...since before the Kingdom Hearts games...I've been her fan since her songs like "First Love", "Deep River", and my most favorite "Sakura Drops"....I was so happy that I had drawn a picture of her and was hoping to give it to her...but....*sigh*
how frustrating....

My GEO contact lenses from Korea that I ordered online are finally here =D I got purple and blue ones and they're cute lol XD anyways...
Yea prom is comin up and my friends and I decided we'd go with a hummer limo(sweeet) and letsee...we're gonna try to fill it with 20 ppl(from what i understand)  but we're short on a couple ppl so we need to try to get ppl...one way to solve it would be if I brought a date with me but I dunno if I'd want to bring a date with me and I dunno who either...I never really had many guy friends lol oh mr. watermelon if only you were here...(jk) i need to buy a dress too lol and maybe i'll wear the contacts to prom XD
oh so Utada is comin down to Miami~~~~ I'm sooooo happy cuz where she's doing the fan meet is so close to my relative's restaurant and my dad's workplace so I just might be able to go...i just dont wanna go alone cuz SoBe has crazy ppl....